False Dilemma

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Choose one: You can either have creativity or you can have mental health.

That’s what I wrote about a month ago. It really seemed that was the choice that was laid out before me. I had started taking medication for my depression, and my creativity faded. I’d seen it happen with others, so I wasn’t terribly surprised, but it wasn’t exactly an event I was excited about.

After that post, several friends who routinely practice their creativity wrote to me to tell me: Yes, there is creativity after depression meds, but you have to work in different ways to find it. Sometimes you have to fight for it more. It’s not gone; you just have to go hunting for it.

Wouldn’t you know it, they were right? Continue reading “False Dilemma”

I’m an idiot.

No one likes rejection, but there are some rejections that sting a lot more than others.

When an editor rejects a story because it doesn’t fit what she’s looking for, sure it’s not great, but it’s totally understandable. The story doesn’t fit. Might be a great story, but it doesn’t belong in this publication.

When an editor rejects a story because it’s substandard, well, that’s just proper. The first summer I really took a stab at selling some of my writing, the story I considered the least valuable, least well written, is what sold. There’s a reason I still send stories out that I don’t consider my best, but when they get rejected, I’m not surprised.

I’ve got some stories that I consider my best. And they haven’t sold yet. When those get rejected, it hurts.

Last week I got a rejection that really, really hurt, though.

I wasn’t rejected because the story was substandard. I wasn’t rejected because the editor was looking for something else.

I was rejected because I’m an idiot. Continue reading “I’m an idiot.”

Guest Post: I Got Published! Now What?

So, I have this friend, Joanna Fletcher. She’s a cool lady, and she recently got published for the first time. I asked her to stop by and talk just a little bit about what it was like. And, well, she obliged! Without further ado, here’s Joanna!

Ever get an email that completely tilted your world on a new axis? You’re moving through your day, staying on the path you’ve expected. File this, deal with that, et cetera. Then comes that little ping and your reality suddenly shifts.

It had been months. Honestly, I’d forgotten about my short story that I’d submitted (although it seems ridiculous that I could forget). It was the only written piece I had out in the world, that little piece of my heart off to the scary world of publication. I should have been checking on it, worrying about it. That’s what writers do, right? But when you’re finishing a master’s degree, teaching full-time, momming full-time, and taking care of a million other adulting things, the brain has to prioritize what it’s going to focus on. Worrying about my little story that had already been rejected wasn’t high on the priority list.

When I got the email saying that my story had been accepted to a small online magazine, it took a few seconds to register. I read the email once, twice, thrice. Then I made a screech that probably belonged to some prehistoric bird and started frantically texting everyone I knew would care. I got mixed reactions. To be fair, some of the people I shared my good news with didn’t understand how much this meant to me. Since I was a child, I wanted to be a published author. I got an article published in my college newspaper, but I didn’t count that since the editor was a friend. No, I wanted someone who’d never met me to think my stories were good enough to publish. And now I had that moment! Here I go, on my way to my dream of being a full-time writer! What a rush! What a thrill!

What a crash after the adrenaline wore off.

Because now everyone’s asking, “What will you do next? Is there more to the story?” And I’m paralyzed. It sounds ridiculous, I know. One short story published, and I’m…scared?

But it’s true. Because when you get a string of no’s, you get used to it. You expect it. And sometimes you even smile and move on quickly because it’s what you expected anyway.

Sometimes a yes is a plot twist that leaves the writer staggering.

The next submission I’m tackling is for a more well-known publication. They sell books on Amazon and everything. The topic is one I’ve written about hundreds of times. This should be cake! But I have never wrestled so hard with writing a piece of fiction.

So what’s next? It’s simple. Some people need to listen to music. Others have a craving to run (why that is, I’ll never understand). I need to write. Franz Kafka said, “A non-writing writer is a monster courting insanity.” I can always tell when it’s been a while since I’ve written for pleasure; I get cranky and withdraw even farther from the world. I have to write to feel alive and whole.

I’ll find other places to submit my newest stories. I’ll tentatively create worlds and characters. I’ll fall in love with some and fall in hate with others. I’ll twist my fingers through the open air, searching through my mental files to find just the right word. I will keep writing.

Review: Company A

Company A
by H. K. Devonshire

Devonshire’s already famous on Mars, and with reason. His historical fiction about the Martian rangers provide fast-paced novels that keep the attention in marvelous ways, and I’m glad they’re finally being made in Terran editions.

In Company A, Devonshire introduces us to the first Martian rangers, led by Greg Farer, an Arizona Ranger transferred to start the new law branch on the red planet. Danger finds him at every turn, as it appears someone wants to make sure that the law doesn’t get a firm hold on Mars. There’s plenty of action in just about every chapter, twists and turns, and plenty of death.

If you’re looking for more in the realm of Terran authors like L’Amour, or you loved Firefly with the mix of Western and Science Fiction, this is a book for you. It reads fast and quick, and it’ll keep you entertained for an evening or two. I’m looking forward to more in this series and seeing the Martian Rangers begin cleaning up the Martian frontier!

On the writing side, if you want to learn how to plot a fast story and introduce readers to a well-lived in world, you could do well to read this book. Devonshire really does set up his world well, and even if you’re not familiar with Martian tech or history, you’ll have everything you need here. The background doesn’t get in the way of the story, but only enhances it, while setting up future storylines for the next books. Check it out!

Mental Health or Creativity?

What is my creativity worth?

Is it worth the lows of depression? Is it worth the dark walks? If it means being free of days unable to function, can I give up the ability to tell stories? If I give up the hollow heart, must I also give up dreamed-up skies?

Can I give up my creativity if it means giving up my depression?

Is it worth it? Continue reading “Mental Health or Creativity?”